Rest Stop

A list of things. Order not significant.

Today...

1. It is Bastille Day. Happy B-Day France;

2. One of my dearest friends has been diagnosed with a brain tumor. Though no one really reads my blog, it is still a way for me to process my trip and to put things out to the universe. In this case, I ask for and offer prayers to her,  prayers of love and healing, gratitude and more love, to my dear dear friend.  I am holding her with the most love and hope I can muster;

3. I pulled the car over at a rest stop. Sometimes it is just safer to rest and arrive late and alive;

4. I took an intense yoga class at PureYoga, Stillwater, MN. It's a bit of a drive, but I have to say, there is something in the energy there that I have found healing. Including Suzy, who does some amazing energy and body work. I thank her for answering my call;

5. For a few moments, I felt safe, deeply safe, possibly for the first time ever;

6. I felt on and off as if I were walking a surreal and unfamiliar planet;

7. I felt like I was sticking my fingers in the holes of my leaky heart;

8. I cried more than once at the joy, bliss, heartbreak, and hardship of four different friends who are too far away for me to hold or bring sustenance;

9. I thought about all the terrible mistakes I have made, some even today;

10. I forgave myself.

"Sometimes to be happy in the present moment, you have to be willing to give up all hopes for a better past."  Robert Holden.